I am a Christian and I suck at it!

I do not claim to be a perfect Christian, confident in Spirit and steadfast in my faith. Actually, I am a Christian and I suck at it. I know it’s not an occupation but it is who I have become because I love what Jesus did for me. I love my God deeply and when I think about that, I want to serve him with all that I am. In church I sing out my love for God and my desire to do His will, but when the rubber hits the road and Monday morning shows up, its not the same song I am singing anymore.

Apparently Paul sucked at being a Christian as well. Yes, I said it, with no disrespect however. In Romans 7 Paul mentions, “For I don’t know what I am doing. For I don’t practice what I desire to do; but what I hate, that I do.”

I have browsed so many Christian websites and blogs, especially the apologetics ones and it seems that a lot of these Christians have answers to all kinds of lives problems with opinions to top things off. I know that the bible gives us solid direction but I am amazed at these people seem to know it all. Even Paul, the great preacher and teacher says, “I don’t know what I am doing”. I humbly agree with him, I do not know what I am doing either.

The Christian life is where two opposites attract. One is the desire to live a life that honors God, a life that reflects his character and attracts people that do not believe in Him. And the other is a life, that repels all things good and holy and is drawn into the crap that dishonors His name and makes an unbeliever say, “I told you so”.

It sucks, doesn’t it? But maybe this is a good thing. Sucking at being a Christian force me to depend on God, recognizing my failures, my sins and knowing that I can’t do anything to deserve His approval. Sucking at being a Christian force me to get close with my God in prayer, praise and reading His word. The beauty at sucking is that Jesus can show me Mercy and give me Grace. So be encouraged you Christians that suck and get close with God today!